Grieving through the Holidays
There isn't an easy time of year to be hit with a wave of grief and outside of triggering events like birthdays and anniversaries it's impossible to predict when the next wave will hit. The holiday season is a challenge for most of the families I meet. It's full of good cheer, good will, and love for family and friends . . . and when someone you love isn't there to share that with you it can feel exactly the opposite.
I asked Sairey Luternman, a Certified Thanatologist with a grief counseling practice in Massachusetts, a few questions about how to grieve through the holidays. She is a thoughtful and compassionate professional who encourages people living with grief to honor themselves during this new way of being. I share her wisdom with you in the hopes it can bring you or someone you love a smidgen more comfort this holiday season.
How do we include meaningful traditions in our family's celebrations when a key person is no longer here? Do we start new traditions? Do we keep the old ones and struggle through them?
After a loss, holidays can take on a looming and threatening nature for a family trying to navigate traditions, memories, and feelings. One of the biggest gifts a grieving person can give themselves is to anticipate a holiday and try to plan for it, well in advance of the actual holiday. What might feel good? What needs to be tossed? Work with your loved ones to develop a plan and ideas for how the holiday time might be best and most comfortably spent. Then, don't feel like those ideas and plans are a lock step formulation. Be willing to switch gears int he middle if something that initially felt comfortable and wonderful isn't working. Surround yourself with family members and friends willing to support and be flexible with you at this time. Some folk are able to work with the old traditions and simply call out and remember and perhaps symbolically include their dead loved one, while other may decide to radically depart from the old ways and take a cruise, go on a hike, or observe a holiday in a way that is entirely different than what they may have done previously. Some find a more comfortable middle ground.
In my experience, this can be about trial and error, and after a few holidays have been approached and celebrated, what may or may not work for a family will begin to emerge. Be thoughtful, refine, adapt, and change as much as you need to, and be kind to yourself.
When does it get easier?
Loss is particular and individual - there is no algorithm for this. Loss is hard and it must be continuously acknowledged. A person who has had a loss is deserving of big doses of love and support. Having good support in place and learning what that support looks like for yourself and your loved ones can help make traveling the road a little easier. There can be an enormous amount of comfort in being with individuals who have also suffered a similar loss, as in a bereavement or loss group, or if that isn't comfortable, one-on-one support may help someone who is really struggling. Seek help and support and be as kind to yourself as you would to someone else who has suffered a loss.
How do I politely decline invitations when I just want to be left alone?
There is a thread of educating others that seems to run through the experience of enduring the loss of a loved one. It is a role one can choose to take on, or not. I believe a polite and simple, "I appreciate the invite, but I am not up to it right now," should suffice. If you feel uncomfortable being that succinct, you could say, "When I feel more up to it, I will be sure to let you know," as it will generally stop the invitee from insisting. There is a lot of clumsiness in what is offered to us in the wake of loss, and a lot of good, too. Listening carefully to your own internal signals and defending the space to grieve and exist the way you need to is your right and a profound need that must be honored. It is okay to defend that space for yourself. If you are not leaving the house for long periods of time or the person making an inquiry or request of you is someone quite close and that you particularly trust, you may ask them, "Why the insistence?" Remember that sometimes our loved ones can feel apprehensive and want to help, but they may also see something distressing in your behavior that is worth listening to - for instance, prolonged withdrawal from family and friends may mean you do need more support, perhaps from a professional.
I feel horrible for wanting to forget about this loss until the holidays are over so I can enjoy the holidays. Does that make me a terrible person?
Taking time to reevaluate and explore how holidays are spent (and enjoyed) in the wake of loss is an important self-care activity. There is a lot of judgment about how we choose to grieve and do things sometimes when we have had a loved one die. If it is more comfortable to proceed with the holiday "the old way" then it should be so - and not having different traditions, memorializing our loved one, and calling them out during this time are absolutely acceptable. What matters in the new normal is that the holiday feels as you and your loved ones desire and need it to be.
I especially like how Sairey mentioned the clumsiness of grief. It is awkward. It is both delicate and tough, and that seems to be so much of the clumsiness of it. In being honest with ourselves about how we feel and how we'd like to spend our time, we can politely and firmly help to set the expectations of others. As Sairey said, defend the space you need to grieve.
Sairey works with clients in and around Lexington, MA, and works with clients via the phone/Skype all over the country. She provides excellent resources online through her site and social media accounts. Her addresses are below if you like to follow her.
May the holidays bring you moments of peace between the waves of grief this year.
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